Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Sometimes...

Sometimes in life
You love
And it all falls apart
And the innocence is lost
That way of loving gone
The heartache heals...
To scar and toughen
To guard and protect
The vulnerability
The freshness
The fearlessness
Of Untainted Love

You now begin
To doubt
To question
To hide
To fear
LOVE
The giving
The accepting

And all the while
Around the bend
On the other side
Unexpectedly
A person waits
To hold your hand
To love you back
The way you do
It makes no sense
It simply is...

But how do you
Break down the walls
Let them in
Accept their love
Love them back
Show them how...
How much you love
How much they mean
How beautiful they are
How perfect to you

Where does one begin to tell
The bliss and joy
The wings they give
To make you fly
High...

What would it take
To show them that
You find peace
In their embrace
Their touch can make
Your heartbeat race
A look from them
Is all it takes
To make your day

If you could
You would
Scoop them up
Carry them around
Inside your soul
To warm your heart
When it gets cold

How does one
Begin to state
Your smile is heaven
When it rests on me
Your voice so soothing
Lulls me to sleep
Every night
Even though
I miss your arms
Around me...
To hold me tight

If I could
I would
Show it all
Let you in
Give it all
But how
HOW
how...
Shall I explain

How much I want
How much I fear
The want itself

How much I love
How much I fear
The love-

How much I need
Need you
Now
Then
Here
There
-everywhere
-all the time
-all the while...

How much I flee
I run
I hide
From you
From me
From love
From US
Because

What if...
You were not here
There was no WE
My heart would break!

I cannot see
A me
Without YOU-
You see...

And so I hold...
Hold back sometimes
Hide sometimes
Don't say sometimes...

The truth, however,
Is my dear
I LOVE
LOVE
love
YOU
SO
MUCH
SOMETIMES

that
it
leaves
me
lost
and
scared

But-

I
DO
LOVE
YOU

24 comments:

Unknown said...

beautiful :D

thought if somebody started telling me all that it would start to freak me out a bit... lol... but that is just me ;) xxx

Shahnaz said...

gulp!

..now you tell me.... after i put it all out there!

ack!!!

Z Sattar said...

these complexities comes in our mind when we start questioning on our decisions.....what I have to say here is that lets face what is coming in your way....

binary-zero said...

:) nice one

Afflatus Archives said...

Sublime, Supreme, And Surreal

(a) Hope is false, beauty is negative, and truth is imagination

(b) Mirages deluge, mirrors break, and promises disappear

(c) Yet the magic goes on. Because the angels whisper to me. The enchantment takes me over and I finitely fall in an infinite matrix of a magical comedy and the comical tragedy - freaks are misunderstood, reality is an overstatement.

Afflatus Archives said...

I think I am in love. But I have said that before. But I have never felt this way, I guess.

I don't want to be sure either.

Unknown said...

haha... lol... only being honest hon ;)

then again if somebody who i loved said all that to me i would be in heaven ;) x

Afflatus Archives said...

I love you.

Akeel faiz said...

Definitely love is a feeling, which is needed all the time and all stage of life. I think all the people, whom you want to see your close and there presence makes you happy and you trust them is you’re loved. Other side all the people whom you don’t want to see close to you, they are people who are hated by you and you don’t want to be close to them. Nice mam

Akeel faiz said...

Definitely love is a feeling, which is needed all the time and all stage of life. I think all the people, whom you want to see your close and there presence makes you happy and you trust them is you’re loved. Other side all the people whom you don’t want to see close to you, they are people who are hated by you and you don’t want to be close to them. Nice mam Definitely love is a feeling, which is needed all the time and all stage of life. I think all the people, whom you want to see your close and there presence makes you happy and you trust them is you’re loved. Other side all the people whom you don’t want to see close to you, they are people who are hated by you and you don’t want to be close to them. Nice mam

Anonymous said...

It is good that u r being more straight n remember "There is always next time", so may be u dont have to write it all here , just pick up a phone n read it out to him. if he is a fool he would smile, if he loves u back he will fly to you without taking a second. if he does not, then as i said before "fall a dead rise a new"
Best of Luck, lets c where does it go
Pheonix

Americanising Desi said...

so totally awe ing! i mean if i said awe full it would give a completely wrong message ;)

Sameerghali said...

voila !!!!!!!

Sameerghali said...

Beautiful , Voila

Unknown said...

Aoa
shahnaz SisO

love

Anonymous said...

Hi Shahnaz i am new to your blog i raelly like the way you think and write can i ask you one thing?
What is Life yaar? why its is so difficult?why someone got that much space in your life?

Anonymous said...

Hi,
Shahnaz i am a big fan of urs since i watch ABC. Why didn't u work for TV again and left Pakistan?

Mannan said...

AAaaalaa Shahnaz ! You just said it all ! :P

Ayub said...

watch this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g71tK0UcQY8

out of this world

Ayub said...

watch this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g71tK0UcQY8

out of this world

Ali said...

wah je wahhhh.. shahnaz just made 2009 someone’s year.. This October the highlighted month of the year.. The 27th day a reliable one to bet it all on..
yeh toh ishq ke level wali baatein hain..lol.. Simply explosive stuff..

waisey i wonder how many people are gonna use your lines from this post now.. this post is a definite 100% kill successrate guarantee when out hunting.. if u know what i mean..

Akeel faiz said...

Love is about
Care
Trust
Sincerity
Honesty
Truthfulness
And it all comes with true and fair believe on Allah swt . There is just one and only one love, its with Allah, I don’t believe in any other love.

Anonymous said...

ur words ,ur thoughts,ur courage,ur sensitivity n above all the woman that u r,....i discovered about ur blogs just tonight n its 5 am in the mornin here n iv been readin since last 5 hrs,without a break n i so felt like telling u.....ur the most adorable extrovert ive ever seen in my life!

will get back again soon...
tc,regards,
NQM

Unknown said...

just wana say
A
W
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S
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M
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