Sunday, November 1, 2009

Stuck

I SPEAK and the words don't seem right
I FEEL but it doesn't get across
I WANT and you can't see
I NEED but it is not conveyed
I TRY but it falls away


STUCK
I feel
So stuck...

Lost in a place
Lost in a space
Lost inside
Lost all the way

Lost in you
Lost in me

Stuck in you
Stuck in me
Stuck in a place
Stuck in this space

One step forward
Two steps back

Frozen
Frozen in place
Frozen in space

Like a tree rooted down
I try to walk
I cannot move

Frozen
Stuck
Lost
Tied down

Trying with all my might
To keep the rope from unraveling

Trying to keep life together
Like a fist full of matches
I am trying to bundle up
And yet
They keep falling
Scattered
Everywhere

How?
...
...how...
HOW
H O W
???

Do I get unstuck

Walk down the road
Into the plain
Take off the fear
Take off the past
Take off the distance
Take off the space that keeps us apart
Take off the pain
Take off the confusion
Take off everything
...
EVERYTHING

That stands in between
And stand before you
Naked
ME
JUST ME
...

Let you see
Let you in
Let you have
Let you hold
Let you know...

You have all of me...

12 comments:

Z Sattar said...

it is something painfully beautiful way of expressing the inner voice
..

Life is hard but keep going anyways said...

Salam Shahnz..
Same feelings here tonight...coincidence or wt i dont know..
whenever find a tool to dig out , do share .. here is anothe rstuck one here..
Stay safe

Anonymous said...

Hi Shehnaz, (Another desparate Post) many would follow if you dont
tell him this all, no one can be that dumb to understand, your words "new loves fade away old ones" just an addition "and Give new courage as well" find courage to deny yourself, coz i think there is one shehnaz inside you somewhere which always tells you to beware so just tell her "Shut up" and move forward. if i would sum it up i would say "You are being nervous" or may be the gentelman is quite fast to take it to the hilt :). Anyway, its your life and lead it your way.You did not tell him anything! you got to be kidding, if you dont, then keep wrting these posts and by the end of year there will be many like these. its your fear, so the problem is with you not with him, your problem (weakness) so you have to overcome it by yourself. Tell him straight fair and square, fear of losing? if you have, so here are few words in advance that you would otherwise lose him if you dont say it all straight and blunt. Nothing would happen, no heavens would fall at all it will be clear for both of you do good to him as well. (My these words are posted in understanding as i understand)

i will pray that you get the courage
Bye, again
"Fall a dead Rise a new"
Pheonix

Umair said...

hi shehnaz its a good peice of writing !

Lost said...

~ manzar bhi hien hijaab kiss say kahien, qulzm bhi hien saraab kiss say kahien.

Akeel faiz said...

I would just say don’t make priority to those people who don’t know your importance. Don’t waste whole life behind arrogant people.

Akeel faiz said...

I would just say don’t make priority to those people who don’t know your importance. Don’t waste whole life behind arrogant people.

Ali said...

ufff.. ashiq bandiii.. kamaall.. derh aalaa... instrument.. jeeeti raho

gazmeer said...

looks nice..all of u..nice.. looking for this..extreme extremme emotions n stuff

gazmeer said...

ishq ishq hai n aashik bas aashik hai

Anonymous said...

salamz
Hi shahnaz...hope you r fine..well i just want to say tht i had read about u alot..and bileve me you shock me every each time..you may b a odnariy person..but you have extra odnariy skils.i might b seems folish..but realy i had never seen a person like you ...you are my ideal...Aabi

Anonymous said...

Choices. A likely reason you are stuck is because deep down, you know he is NOT the one. Your vision cannot comprehend how this will work for long term happiness, can it? You know it. Its just that alternative options do not seem to present themselves as more attractive now, but long term they just might...