Shahnaz, I've been crying. Ive been hurting. Ive been crying and crying until I cry myself hollow. Shahnaz, I am terminally ill. I had a boyfriend so I decided to leave him because I couldnt share the pain with him..I told him about my illness.....I cried and I cried. He didnt once ask about my health. Instead he sent me many messages saying that i hurt him, that I hurt everyone around me, that I am a bad person and I deserve to die. Then he said he's going to Austraila and hes gonna have fun...and then he left me too....he left me with unbearable thoughts....he threw our relationship out of the window saying I treated him 'just like a facebook friend'.....but I didnt....i told him about my illness many times, but he kept asking questions about himself - what will happen to him? his facebook (i still cant udnerstand why facebook is so important to him than my life), his trips to Austraila, how hes happy etc etc...He didnt once ask about me...what i felt...the pain I was going through...the countless hospital trips....I have fallen apart. I asked him what my fault was? Was it because i was terminally ill? He didnt reply. But every opportunity he gets, he hurts me and he pains me through words and I am so so tired....im currently in sweeden and he is in dubai. His name is Adam. My name is Chloe. I came across your blog through a friend, can you help me?
Shahnaz, I've been crying. Ive been hurting. Ive been crying and crying until I cry myself hollow. Shahnaz, I am terminally ill. I had a boyfriend so I decided to leave him because I couldnt share the pain with him..I told him about my illness.....I cried and I cried. He didnt once ask about my health. Instead he sent me many messages saying that i hurt him, that I hurt everyone around me, that I am a bad person and I deserve to die. Then he said he's going to Austraila and hes gonna have fun...and then he left me too....he left me with unbearable thoughts....he threw our relationship out of the window saying I treated him 'just like a facebook friend'.....but I didnt....i told him about my illness many times, but he kept asking questions about himself - what will happen to him? his facebook (i still cant udnerstand why facebook is so important to him than my life), his trips to Austraila, how hes happy etc etc...He didnt once ask about me...what i felt...the pain I was going through...the countless hospital trips....I have fallen apart. I asked him what my fault was? Was it because i was terminally ill? He didnt reply. But every opportunity he gets, he hurts me and he pains me through words and I am so so tired....im currently in sweeden and he is in dubai. His name is Adam. My name is Chloe
Im hurt and i hurt again and I cry again. My eyes hurt. My inner self hurts. My soul cries out to God, "Take me now, please just end the pain, please take me now"
"do not make a priority in your life, someone who only makes you an option in theirs..."
life is beautiful.
every last second of it. live it! out loud. be sad if you must. hurt if you must. and then when the tears stop for a bit- go have a mocha or some wonderful chocolate, or enjoy a sunset, or look at a baby and smile...
yes the tears will come. as they must. there is a loss, and a hurt. but then they stop too...as they must, because life does go on...however long it may be...love you first!
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Sochoon Tu Silwaton Se Bhari Hai Tamaam Rooh..
Dekhun Tu Ik Shikan Bhi Nahi Hai Libaas Per...!
When I read it..You came up in my mind.
Shahnaz, I've been crying. Ive been hurting. Ive been crying and crying until I cry myself hollow. Shahnaz, I am terminally ill. I had a boyfriend so I decided to leave him because I couldnt share the pain with him..I told him about my illness.....I cried and I cried. He didnt once ask about my health. Instead he sent me many messages saying that i hurt him, that I hurt everyone around me, that I am a bad person and I deserve to die. Then he said he's going to Austraila and hes gonna have fun...and then he left me too....he left me with unbearable thoughts....he threw our relationship out of the window saying I treated him 'just like a facebook friend'.....but I didnt....i told him about my illness many times, but he kept asking questions about himself - what will happen to him? his facebook (i still cant udnerstand why facebook is so important to him than my life), his trips to Austraila, how hes happy etc etc...He didnt once ask about me...what i felt...the pain I was going through...the countless hospital trips....I have fallen apart. I asked him what my fault was? Was it because i was terminally ill? He didnt reply. But every opportunity he gets, he hurts me and he pains me through words and I am so so tired....im currently in sweeden and he is in dubai. His name is Adam. My name is Chloe. I came across your blog through a friend, can you help me?
Shahnaz, I've been crying. Ive been hurting. Ive been crying and crying until I cry myself hollow. Shahnaz, I am terminally ill. I had a boyfriend so I decided to leave him because I couldnt share the pain with him..I told him about my illness.....I cried and I cried. He didnt once ask about my health. Instead he sent me many messages saying that i hurt him, that I hurt everyone around me, that I am a bad person and I deserve to die. Then he said he's going to Austraila and hes gonna have fun...and then he left me too....he left me with unbearable thoughts....he threw our relationship out of the window saying I treated him 'just like a facebook friend'.....but I didnt....i told him about my illness many times, but he kept asking questions about himself - what will happen to him? his facebook (i still cant udnerstand why facebook is so important to him than my life), his trips to Austraila, how hes happy etc etc...He didnt once ask about me...what i felt...the pain I was going through...the countless hospital trips....I have fallen apart. I asked him what my fault was? Was it because i was terminally ill? He didnt reply. But every opportunity he gets, he hurts me and he pains me through words and I am so so tired....im currently in sweeden and he is in dubai. His name is Adam. My name is Chloe
Im hurt and i hurt again and I cry again. My eyes hurt. My inner self hurts. My soul cries out to God, "Take me now, please just end the pain, please take me now"
He doesn't answer
sugar chica-
silwatain hi silwatain hai tamam zindagi main...
how beautiful.... i loved it! thanks
chloe-
"do not make a priority in your life, someone who only makes you an option in theirs..."
life is beautiful.
every last second of it.
live it!
out loud.
be sad if you must.
hurt if you must.
and then when the tears stop for a bit- go have a mocha or some wonderful chocolate, or enjoy a sunset, or look at a baby and smile...
yes the tears will come. as they must. there is a loss, and a hurt. but then they stop too...as they must, because life does go on...however long it may be...love you first!
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