Wednesday, January 20, 2010

One love-



to a kiss that has not been...to a kiss that i thought
to a dance that was not danced
to a song that we both love

Friday, January 15, 2010

explosion

felt my heart open
and love gushed out
the ice finally melted
and love poured out
felt confused
felt sure and unsure
felt love
felt you
f-e-l-t
it exploded out

got you on my mind

got you on my mind
can't get you out
seem lost and distracted
spinning like a top
feel like i'm falling
ground rushing up
right before i hit
seem to soar up
tummy does flips
heart skips a beat
tried and tried to leave
just could not
lay there in bed
completely aware
i am helpless
when it comes to you
hopelessly in love
we'll end up at square one
time and time again
maybe we will make it
if we don't go insane
we fight like we're champs
both got our belts
babe, see the thing is
i'm lost when it's you
i'm done when it's you
i'm a doozy for you
i am for you
...

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Geo TV- NKS Monday 1-18-10

NKS to do a feature on the foursome from ABC. Don't forget to tune in and watch!

Keep me updated.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Alice in Wonderland-

It happened quite unexpectedly
It happened almost suddenly
One day I was just AWARE
That I had finally
Grown up....

I sat and talked again today
In his comfy leather chair
Amidst the well worn books and all
Amidst the old familiar smells
Comfort smells
Old paper, ink, wood paneling

I sat in peace and soaked in
His warm and benevolent gaze
That dearly, cherished, familiar face
"Could it be, Shahnaz, that you are finally growing up?"
"What shall we do John?" I asked
"How shall we keep Alice in Wonderland?"

He chuckled then
While I smiled back
A secret shared
Communication had
Understanding gained
Gratitude expressed

Such are the moments
Of life- my friend
Meaningful more than anything
Such are the moments
Of truth- my friend
When growing happens unexpectedly

I sat and looked
He sat and watched
And peace flowed lazily
Like a river
Meandering
Endlessly

I have grown up
I have shed
My baby fat
And now I'm set
To step into
My big girl shoes...

Alice shall not walk again
Evermore in Wonderland

Saturday, January 9, 2010

And then he sang to me...



"Sing to me-"

And while I put on my make up
On that first morning
He sat outside
And sang his song
As I walked over
By the door
And stayed quiet,
Hidden from view
Lest he stop-
Mesmerized
Intoxicated
Lost in....
"IT"
Whatever
"IT" was
And then...

"Sing to me-"

And he sat on the bed
As I sat close by
And watched
By the ocean
And he sang
A song
And my heart
Opened wide
Filled up
Overflowed
Laughed aloud
Fell so hard
And then...

"Sing to me-"

And he stood up
On the bed
And looked at me
And then he sang
While the snow
Chilled the outside
Of the cabin
He sang to me
And warmed my heart
Looked into my eyes
And spoke
Of love
And then...

"Sing to me-"

And he sat on the bed
Alone this time
Miles apart
With aching heart
And phone in hand
And I heard his voice crack
As I felt
The tears I cried
In his song
The first line only- this time
And then I felt
His tears
Wet my cheeks
And heartbreak happened
Again last night
And heartache happened
Again last night
And then...

Raging Storm

It rages deep inside
Like a storm
Building
Growing
Smoldering
Living
Like a wounded beast
Screams
In pain
It bellows
The confusion
Bewildered
Obfuscated
Lashing out
In anger
Unchecked
The unfairness of
Fate
The joke
Of life
To give
To take
To tease and then
Retreat
While it leaves
YOU
LOST
WONDERING
LOSING
A winning game
So perfect
And yet
Unattainable
Or so the mind believes
As it rages
Like a storm
While it wages
Open war
With itself
Tossing
Turning
Churning
Like angry waves
Crashing
On the shore
Of the ocean
That once was calm
Serene
Beautiful
Like you
Like the day
When we were one
Laying down
Upon the sand
Lost in thought
Lost in you
Lost in me
Lost in bliss
And at peace
While the waves
Lapped softly by
And we danced on the shore
To the music of our hearts
And made love
With fireworks
By the ocean
Beautiful
By the ocean
Calm
By the ocean
Raging now
Raging
Storm
Within the soul
Passion
Unspent
Alive still is...
The urgency
Of loving
Of wanting
Yearning
Aching
Bleeding
Breaking
Like the waves
Upon the shore
Of the ocean
My ocean
Your ocean
Our ocean

Raging Storm
Waging War
Bleeding heart
Aching soul
Seeking
Needing
Reaching deep
To find itself
To fight itself
To find you
To fight with you
Because
It simply does not know how
To exist without you now....