Tuesday, January 4, 2011

The journey- Seeking

I was seeking, searching, looking desperately for something and never knowing what it was I sought- restless beyond belief I looked- everywhere. At everyone. At everything. Wondering, is it you, is that it? What I am seeking. Where is it? But I never knew... I never found it. I was trying too hard. So I did something different in my search. Instead of looking in specifics I just went seeking in abstracts- and boy did I find it-

I found all that was needed. I found all that I will ever need.

You see, I am a thankless creature. A spoiled brat to the core! I want what I want when I want it- What an inflated sense of entitlement I delude myself with... That is not what living is about. Life is a journey. Life is a gift. Seek it and you shall find it. Whatever it is... but be not specific- how can you? How can you know what will make you happy? What will comfort. That is a surprise. The specifics are limiting. When we delve into specifics we subtract all else and that is a gross injustice to our being. I never found a single specific. Not a one. Instead I found so many surprising treasures, I would have missed otherwise, because I was focused on and blinded by my search and my craving for a specific.

Yes I found all that I will ever need. All that I will ever want. Just not in the ways that I have been aiming at. But does that mean that they are any less desirable...hardly. It is I who has made them that way. And the minute I changed me, it all changed too... I found all that I will ever need- and it all resides and rests in me...

I went seeking and I found it all-

1 comment:

MAYA AIESH said...

""I want what I want when I want it- What an inflated sense of entitlement I delude myself with... That is not what living is about. Life is a journey. Life is a gift. Seek it and you shall find it. Whatever it is... but be not specific- how can you? How can you know what will make you happy? What will comfort. That is a surprise. The specifics are limiting.""

True!