Love and grace

It's a vast wilderness

This space within

I have not visited it in depth

For an age now

There has been a sorrow

Hanging in the air

The residue of a heart break

And of the carnage in Gaza

I shut down emotionally

After that

And there was a giant Gaza shaped 

Hole in my soul

To keep company with

The dad shaped hole

And heartbreak holes

In this old and worn little heart of mine 

I took a chance just the other day

And opened my heart up again

Love gives you wings to fly

The only problem is 

When you are open

It all is possible

Happiness

Joy

Love

Laughter

And yes even pain

And so just like what goes up

Must come down

The heart that feels

Must feel it all

The sorrow

And the pain

The laughter

And the rain

At the first touch of pain

I felt it again

All the well crafted defenses 

So prudently nurtured

Kick into effect

And start the auto process 

Of shut down 

Once again

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This time I took a chance

And resisted

I chose the path of 

Human 

And decided for once

Not to be a superhuman 

The storm came and passed

My Bug compared me 

To Nelson Mandela

I smiled through my tears

Sometimes we try

So hard

To show our true self

To others

Who are too blind to see

The real thing

I tried that

I give up

Those that have eyes

Will see me

Those that don't

No longer matter

I am reminded of the words 

Two men spoke to me

The Bear once told me

"Cast not your pearls before swine"

And Gandalf said to me

"My little Persian Princess

Repeat after me 

-I have nothing

To prove

To anyone

Including myself-"

And so today

I wander my wilderness

Again

It is a haven

Full of grace

It is my grace

This is my face

Full of love

And both 

Love and Grace

Are my connection

To my God

After all

God is love

God is grace

I am me

And that is good enough