Friday, October 31, 2014

I am a fool

I am a drifter
I cannot
Accumulate
Items
Or money 
Tedious, dull
Things

I am a seeker
Searching
For truth
Something
Real
In this world
Of fake

I am a vessel
Housed within
Is my soul
My heart
And also my mind
Trying to align and 
Harmonize 

I am a novice
Learning
Forgetting
Mistaking
Blundering
And then doing it 
All over again

Some days
I am blind
Some days
I see
At times
I am a fool and sometimes
I am wise

I am blind
Drifting...
A novice 
In a vessel-
A fool
Seeking
Wisdom 

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Your heart won't let you forget

Why deny the truth of your heart?
Your heart won't let you forget
Why turn away from love
Reason won't make love end
All the turns and twists along the way
You think
You act
And yet
Your heart will bring you back
Why deny the truth of your heart...?
Your heart won't let you forget-

Monday, October 27, 2014

If they could they would-

"How could they see anything but the shadows if they were never allowed to move their heads?"
Plato- the allegory of the cave

I spoke with a soul today
He saw 
I shared
We conversed
And it was uplifting.

Of those who have not yet discovered
The journey into the self
How can one expect?
That was my wisdom for today...
If they could, they would-
And just like that comes an abundance of understanding and acceptsnce and patience.

Learning the art of existence
How to be in this world, but not of this world-

And many before me have spoken the same. The wisdom in the universe is one. Many arrive at it from different paths and at different times...


"It is the task of the enlightened not only to ascend to learning and to see the good but to be willing to descend again to those prisoners and to share their troubles and their honors, whether they are worth having or not. And this they must do, even with the prospect of death." Plato- the allegory of the cave

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Life and meaning...

Like my thoughts I die and am reborn each day- Rumi

Each night lost
I cry myself to sleep
It makes no sense
This world
It makes no sense to me
I see people
Chasing after things
All day long
They scurry from place to place
Money
Power
Things
More
More 
More...
I lie awake 
I see the walls
The roof
The things
In my room
They are just things
And the world
Makes no sense
I fall asleep 
Weary...
I awake
Weary...
The same walls
The same room
The same things
-
And then it happens
My meaning
A dark eyed
Angel
With dark curly hair
And sleepy eyes
Steps into my space
And with her comes
The scent of heaven
And light
So much light...
My heart cracks open
And my eyes tear up
She is beautiful
And it all makes sense again
Life
And meaning
Begin 
With love
And for me
Bug is love-


Saturday, October 25, 2014

The Samurai and I

He grounds my soul and sooths my spirit
The Samurai...
He listens as I speak
Holds the space as I break
And then he shows me
My true self

He is strong enough
To embrace
All the feelings
I bring to him
Strong enough to understand
I need to speak
I don't need fixing 

He sees and knows 
My soul
I've known his a long time too
Our paths weave
And meet
And on occasion
Separate

He loves me
And I him
The Samurai

Sunday, October 19, 2014

On my knees...

The thing about a broken back is,
I find myself either face down on the floor 
Or on my knees often-
Both, I have discovered 
Are an excellent position
For me to pray

I vowed 
When I was very little
That if I ever bowed my head
It would only be before God
So it is fitting that it is bowed often before Him now

Another thing about being down there
Is that I am learning how to fight 
From the ground
It is a different kind of fight
One I am not used to
I usually fight on my feet
I am quick on my feet
But I guess
The Lord
In his wisdom decided
I needed to learn how to fight
A different way

I learn fast once acceptance kicks in
Humility follows
And then comes turmoil
The struggle of impatient ones
Over eager novices
Like myself

But like I read somewhere
"What is to give light must endure burning..."
I shall endure
And burn
And while on the floor face down
And on my knees
I shall say a prayer
Each time
To Him
That is 
Light
Divine



 

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Transcendence

I am more than my physical form
I am more than what I seem
I am a soul
And when I see
What I am
I have no fear
Fear is a physical thing
Faith is a soul thing
When I have faith
I am without fear
Not fear less...
For I am never less than
Or more than
I am a soul
And a soul
...
 A soul is!
A soul 
Always 
Is