Us

The rest is life
We are lonely souls
Flecks of divine energy
Trying to find our way back to the original divinity the ONE
Huuuu
To think we are in control is futile
We merely survive and exercise small choices
In the end
None of it matters
We are flecks of divine
Trying to remember the way back to the ONE

A daughter, a mother

Happy Birthday ami

Thank you for being the best mother you could have been given your wounds and challenges

Teenagers are difficult to parent and given my wounds and challenges I'm doing the best I can with my kid

Some days you failed

Some days as a mother I fail too

But as a mother I have learned something I could not have learned as a daughter

I love my daughter...

and I'm doing the best I can giving her everything I've got...

and some days it's not enough...

or even what she needs...

and some days I don't know how to give her what she needs!

And yet I know without a doubt I do it all out of love for her 

Because I love her...

As a mother I now know you love your daughter too

As a daughter, to you my mother, know I love you endlessly 

I always have

Even on days I hated you

I hated you because I loved you

Passion

Love me

Know my soul

I yearn for understanding

To be 

Known

Loved for the knowing

Speak my thoughts

Feel my heartbeat 

Taste the salt of my skin

The sweetness of my lips

Listen to my colors

See the sounds of my touch

Forget all you know

Just sense my existence

Vibrate with yours

The darkness

The darkness is a strange place

I know it well

You knew it too

The darkness beguiles at times

It's cold caress

The promise of nothingness

With a heart so broken 

The mind wants simply 

To forget 

The pain

I too

know the pain

And yet

How could you

Succumb

Let go

Embrace

It so...

I don't know

I'm mad at you

I'm sad

Confused

I don't even know

How could you

Succumb

Let go

Embrace

It so...

Wisdom of the falling leaves

Shedding leaves

One by one

Held on

For so long

Each a story

All its own

With each falling

Come tears of blood

With the tears

Acceptance comes

It comes but at a 

Handsome cost

You must feel

To let go

You feel

You falter

Let go and

Fall

And with each falling

You are caught

Float softly down

In the arms of grace 

Shedding leaves

One by one

Held on for so long

Hurts and loves

With each falling

A fear of loss

And with each loss

Something's gained

Shedding tears now

So many come

Like leaves falling

In the fall

So many memories

To let go

Like a monsoon

Floods the plain

Shedding stories

Shedding lives

Shedding sorrows

Shedding skins

Raw and weeping

Gnarly plain

Stands the tree now

Stripped and bare

Standing still

Majestic

Tall

Cold yet lovely

Winter comes

Stoic

Silent

Somber

Strong

The tree stands despite

The seasons' toll

Hope of spring time

In the air

It waits 

Patient

For times to change

Sexual Harassment in the Workplace

Poison

In my veins 

Politics

Dirty tricks

Cannibals

At my flesh pick

Vultures

In corporate suits

With rancid breath

And clammy hands

Grab my ass

Harrass

My silent screams

Unheard

Through the maze

Of formal complaints

In shock and dazed

I chase the shadows

Of human rights

Betrayed

ENRAGED

Wounded spirit

Tired feet

No screams

My lips sealed

The CEO free

While I can't breathe

It has a name

This

PLAGUE

Say it

Out loud

Not all who break

Were physically raped

For some the exploitation

Was mental

Emotional 

Some were grabbed

Groped

Harassed

A word 

Remark 

Or two

Demeans

Invades

MY SPACE

IT HAS A NAME

This plague

Say it

Out loud

I rise

From cinder, ash and dust

I rise

With each tear that falls

I am cleansed

Hello there

Who are you

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

My heart

My soul

I love you

I know this heart

I know this soul

This face

This hand

Wrinkled

Broken

Worn

And still

I love you

From the ashes 

And the dust

Yet I rise

And with each blow

That felled me

To the ground

Even as you watched

From that crumpled heap

I rose

Yes I rise

Anew

Reborn

Untorn

Ever free

Wild

I rise

I love you

I love you

I love you

I rise

Seven and Three at WPC

Every now and then

I meet a soul 

Whose music enthralls my world 

In this vast

Universe

We share some space

Exchange a word

A connection made

In a life full of minutes

Momentous moments 

Such as this

My landscape make

#turtle

#pipes

Haq sayaan...

Parh Parh Alam Fazal Hoya 
Kalam Baba Bulleh Shah

Parh parh Alam te faazil hoya
Te kaday apnay aap nu parhya ee na

(You read to become
all knowledgeable
But you never read yourself)

You read so many books
to know it all,
yet fail to ever read your
heart at all.

Bhaj bhaj warna ay mandir maseeti
Te kaday mann apnay wich warya ee na

(You run to enter temples and mosques
But you never entered your own heart)

You rush to holy shrines to play a part,
Would you dare enter the shrine of your heart

Larna ay roz shaitaan de naal
Te kadi nafs apnay naal larya ee na

(Everyday you fight Satan
But you never fight your own Ego)

You are quick to attack the evil one,
yet pride is a battle you have not won.

Bulleh Shah asmaani ud-deya pharonda ay
Te jera ghar betha unoon pharya ee na

(Bulleh Shah you try grabbing that which is in the sky
But you never get hold of What sits inside you)

You grab for a star you can control,
yet fail to grasp the light in your soul.

Bas kareen o yaar
(Stop it all my friend)

Let the race end, my friend

Ilm-oun bas kareen o yaar
Ik Alif teray darkaar

(Stop seeking all this knowledge my friend
Only an Alif is what you need)

Stop trying to be the one who knows,
for 'God is One' you need to know.

Bas kareen o yaar
(Stop it all my friend)

End the race, my friend

Allah Sayyaan Allah Sayyaan
(God is the Master, God is All)

God is All we need! God is All!

Nee main jaanaa Jogi de naal

(I shall follow the Yogi {ascetic/sufi})

Follow the wandering dervish!

Jo naa jaane, Haqq ki taaqat
Rabb naa devey us ko Himmat

(Those who deny the Strength of Truth
Lord does not give them courage)

If you deny the power of all that's true,
God will not grant strength to you.

Hum Mann ke darya mein doobey
Kaisi nayya? Kya manjhdhaar?

(We have drowned in the river of Self
the boat and the flowing waters do not matter)

We are lost in this river of self,
no boat or streams are of any help.

Bas kareen o yaar
(Stop it all my friend)

End the race, my friend

Ilm-oun bas kareen o yaar
(Stop seeking all this knowledge my friend)

Stop trying to know it all, my friend.

Allah Sayyaan Allah Sayyaan
(God is the Master, God is All)

God is All we need! God is All!