Monday, July 29, 2013

She has to go away-

She has to go away
And I must stay
I have to let her go
My anger cannot keep her

I am angry that she's old
I am angry she was wrong
I am angry 'cos I love her
I am angry 'cos I'm wrong


I am not even angry
Maybe I'm scared
Maybe a lot sad
And sometimes even lost...

I saw her eyes today,
As I put on my makeup,
Between my face and the mirror
And they were FULL of LOVE!!!!

I heard HIM speak to me
This is the last time-
You may not ever see
Those loving eyes again...

I went in and I told her
And I know that

I told her " I am sorry"
She said "please forgive me"
I said "forgive me too"
And just like that...
The past was done.

We had the present moment
And she had ME 
In that moment
We had LOVE

And she knows
And I know
That she
"Has to go away..."
"I must stay."

And we cried-
Because of L O V E 
We cried...

And she knows....
And I know...
Because God and Love

(told us so...)

That she HAS to 

...go away...

And I must stay-

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

This love

'Tis a many splendored thing, this love-

It shines like grace from the heavens above.

Warms my heart, sets free my soul...

Opens me up-

Makes me whole

Fills me up so I can float

As I scatter onward this blessing I behold

The more I have, the more I give

The more I give- the more I get...

'Tis a many splendored thing, this  love...

Monday, July 15, 2013


I'm sorry,
Please forgive me...
Thank you-
I love you.

The wisdom of letting go and freeing yourself. 
"Out of love comes healing". 
My Reiki teacher stated to me.
And thus was I healed.
And able, in turn to offer healing-

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Chocolate brownies-

Brownies are good eats. Rich, moist, sweet... 
They are "happy making" food!

Brownies are also like relationships. Relationships are also "happy making" things- IF they are "healthy" :)

Brownies can be unhealthy too! But not the way I make them. I make amazing "healthy" fat free, protein laden brownies!

The trick is to stick with the healthy in both the relationship and the brownie.
My friend Linda once said,

People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.

I was in the midst of attempting death by carbs last night- very, very late last night. After a horrendous evening I wanted my "happy making" carbs. Caught up in my starch high and processing my thoughts and life events I was pleasantly surprised when my phone ting tinged :)

It was my dear dear friend Bob-
He Facebook messaged me because he saw I was up late and concerned, wrote to encourage me to head to bed since it was that late.

I let him know that I was attempting death by carbs and peanut butter. He chuckled about what a way to go that would be and then proceeded to ask what ailed me.

I told him I was sad and confused by the universe. I told him I was practicing patience. I also told him I was aware that it would all work out in the end...

And then, like always, he spouted his wisdom-

"It will. Until then, 99% of life is showing up, to quote Woody Allen. The other 1% is carbs and peanut butter."

I laughed out loud! And told him I LOVE YOU!
He told me I LOVE YOU back...
Beautiful words those I LOVE YOUs...

The universe may not give me what I want, but it ALWAYS gives me what I need. I needed love last night and got it-

I got love from one of my lifetime people! 

Bob is one of my lifetime people.

That's the thing with lifetime people. They recognize your worth and treat you the way you deserve to be treated. They cherish and adore you. They celebrate and encourage you. Endlessly love you. And vice versa.

Reason people are brought into our lives to bring us messages. They come and go flowing smoothly, impart their messages and then vanish.

Season people are people we had hoped would become lifetime people. But they either did not recognize our worth or did not treat us right... Or we did not recognize their worth and did not treat them right...

The consequence was that a separating was necessitated. Hence the season...

The universe always has a plan. It will guide. Until that plan comes to fruition, I will keep on "showing up!" meanwhile, there's always fat free brownies and peanut butter!

Love and peace-

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Ramadan Kareem

96:1 Read! In the name of your Lord who created: 96:2 He created man from a clinging form. 96:3 Read!

Monday, July 8, 2013

Being human-

..."I saw many humans on whom there were no clothes. I saw many clothes in which there were no humans..."

Sunday, July 7, 2013


"May I call you Shah?"
He asked...

I was taken aback for a bit. There was just one other person that called me Shah. 

I responded, and told him some about Shah. This is the time. The universe will give back to me all that was once taken from me. The timing was all wrong... The persons all wrong...

Divine timing- ripening...
One must await and demonstrate 
Ripening :)

It is a tribe of spirituals that roam this earth- POWs as JT called us...
Those of us that have escaped the cave and like renegades giddy and euphoric we run screaming
Ana al haq....

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Free soul

This is my skin...
The one that I was born in
It is a part of me
It glows with life
From within-

You may
And turn up your nose
It will not cringe
It is my skin
And I will never 
My own
To appease
Your whim...

This is my heart
This is my soul
And yes
This is my life
I live free
And freedom
Is my right
And not your gift

I will not 
To feed your ego
Mine is well in check
And I have not much
To prove
To you
Or me
Or anyone else

This is my bliss
And my
I am not a body
Housing a soul
I AM...
A soul
I have a body 
I have a thought
So be with me 
With my soul
Or be gone
And find your own way
Pollute not
My space
My soul
My skin
My home

Sticks and stones...

One by one they cast their stones...
Starting with my blood brother and then followed by my human brothers...

Each had his piece to speak,
And condemn my soul-

And I silent, listened...
I sensed my reactive anger smolder
As indignation took force
And gently, gently... I soothed and calmed my flustered clamor.

"Where were they when in agony I writhed?"
"Where when my wounded body called out in pain?"

Not a one did hear my cry or answer my call and yet,
Today they stand... 
Rocks in hand-
Spittle at the ready
Eager to defame
My name
Or so they claim
As they stand 
In judgment 
Over my "shame"
Righteous in this game as they
Threaten me with rejection
And also with religion
Where were they when 
They uttered 
The lords name in vain
Even as they played "god"
And cast their rocks
At another human
As if they 
Were the owners
Of pristine souls...

One by one they cast their stones...
Starting with my blood brother and then followed by my human brothers...

While I silent watched...
And stepped aside
Their shots...
My soul now without anger
Forgive them lord 
For they know not what they do

'Tis easy
So very easy 
To forgive 
When we have forgiven

Forgive them lord 
For their torment 
And agony
Make them
Their brethren
As they know not
What they do-