The Unbreakable Heart

"You have to break your heart over and over until it becomes an Unbreakable Heart"

When your heart breaks, your soul can hear the sound...

When your heart breaks, fear tends to take root...

Carefully you construct the outer shell that will enclose your poor heart. Meticulously you discipline it, bit by bit, shut it down and lock it away- for safe keeping and alas, just like that your poor heart is put away, put aside- and there it sits untouched day after day, year after year.

Every so often it forces it's way out and at the first sign of a crack, and the twinge of emotion it's tucked away again for safe keeping-

"A heart cracking open to feel love, feels a lot like a heart breaking open..."

I lived a life

A safe life

A life without a heart

Because of a broken heart

That I tucked away

Once upon a time 

For safe keeping

It's funny I can't even remember

When I put it away

But today

With open heart

I wonder

How much of life I missed

With my poor heart

Locked away

I have been breaking my heart

For ages now

I no longer fear

Breaking

For I have learned from experience 

That I can sustain

A lot

There is a quiet

That settles in my soul now

A knowing

Of the power

Of love

Once all emotions have cycled through me,

All that remains is love

And love is...

It simply 

Is-

Before there was anything

There was love

Out of nothing 

Love brought everything

All you need is love

Love is all you need

And this is why

I have been breaking my heart

Because breaking my heart

Leads to an Unbreakable Heart

You can only know life

Through an Unbreakable Heart

Knowing leads to love

And love to knowing

Knowing about love 

Will lead you to love

And once you arrive at love

All things intersect

And then there is

Abundance

Because love is

Love simply

IS

Once

Once upon a time

I was a human 

I loved

I lived

I cared

I laughed 

I wept

I knew right from wrong

Once upon a time

There was a world

Of sunshine

Of kindness

Of caring

Of understanding 

Of helping 

Of being more than "me"

Once upon a time

There was truth

And faith

And hope

And trust

And knowing 

And giving

There was wisdom 

Once upon a time

I wished

To go back 

To give back

To be free

To know you

To know me

To go back to the goodness of ONCE

My city of love

Oddly enough 

There's no place on earth

That I think of as "home"

Not a spot or a corner

That feels like my own

I've wandered this earth

A nomad I am

And yet there's an ache

A longing inside 

For a place full of love 

A place where I smile

Oddly enough

When I think 

Of Peshawar 

It now feels like home

I feel tears in my eyes

And my heart starts to melt

I hear the sounds of laughter

Feel all the love in the air

The warmth of the people

Kind hearts everywhere

Oddly enough

Love and Peshawar 

Both sound the same

They called it the city of flowers

It's fragrance lingers still

The city of love

That's my name for it

In this world

I'm confused

I don't have a home

But if it's my heart that you seek 

It beats in Peshawar

That's where it stayed  

In my city of love

My heart made a home

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