31

So here I am! Past midnight- (Hallucinogen presentation just finished) and laughing over good old times with friends who keep calling to tell me I am loved and thought of... in so many ways.

I am blessed is what I think... (in the brief respite from the ringing of the phone).... I am lucky and I am blessed. I have love. All forms of it. And so much of it that once again my cup overfloweth....

I am 31 today.
And after the stressful (tongue in cheek) decision of deciding whether I was going to stay 30, turn 32 and skip 31 altogether, or actually turn the dreaded 31 (ack!)
(30 is a great number! 32 sounds distinguished... 31 is just sort of "there" not very psychedelic- and yes I use that word because of the recent hallucinogenic research... and no... I did not use :P I merely read and wrote! Get your heads out of the gutter!!)I HAVE decided to turn 31.

And I am very excited I might add. Life is good. Life is great!

Today started with Bubba Jee's beautiful face and her unsuppressed excitement because she and Mrs. Smith and Rebbecca have a surprise planned for me for tomorrow- sshhhhh... she doesn't know I know ;)She could barely contain herself all day. I have an angel in my life. Yes I am blessed...

Then came flowers- roses...red, a cuddly bear and candy! Always beautiful.. Always touching! It never ceases to amaze me how my vase is always full! Yup!
I am blessed...

Throughout the day, I got little gifts... smiles and texts and "I love you's"... songs, "Peera" (while at the salon! with color in my hair! yes i heard peera!)... and laughter... voices I love... hearts that love... people I cherish... all around me.... all my family
Yes, I am blessed...

A little note. So beautiful. It touched my heart...
Facebook messages
E mails
Phone calls...

I was called OWLY again! What a treat.
Kaniggit called- how sweet!

I was put on speaker phone to speak with a biker, with long hair, who plays the blues!! (Yaya!!) Who promised to eat curly fries just for me ;) to celebrate my "short" curly hair... who told me of Lush Pash! I am Lush Pash...

And then... at the very moment... the hour... the minute... I heard a voice. Your voice...
So dear. So near. So true. So you.......
What better way to start the year, than with you. I love you!

For who you are- I love you
For who you can be- I love you
For simply being- I love you
For loving me- I love you
For how you make me feel- I love you
For words that were real- I love you
For "jaan"- I love you

...

Yes, 31 looks to be a good year!

Franz Ferdinand- No you girls never know...

Oh, kiss me
Flick your cigarette, then kiss me
Kiss me where your eye won't meet me
Meet me where your mind won't kiss me

Flick your eyes and mine
and then hit me
Hit me with your eyes so sweetly
Oh, you know you know you
know that yes I love
I mean I´d love to get to know you

Do you never wonder?
No, no no no

You girls never know
Oh no, you girls'll never know
No you girls never know
How you make a boy feel
You girls never know
Oh no, you girls'll never know
No you girls never know
How you make a boy feel
How you make a boy

Oh, kiss me
Flick your cigarette, then kiss me
Kiss me where your eye won't meet me
Meet me where your eye won't lick me
Flick your mind and mine so briefly
Oh you know, you know
you´re so sweetly
Oh you know, you know that I
know that I love you
I mean I, I mean I need to love

Do you never wonder?
No, no no no

You girls never know
Oh no, you girls'll never know
No you girls never know
How you make a boy feel
You girls never know
Oh no, you girls'll never know
No you girls never know
How you make a boy feel
How you make a boy feel
How you make a boy

Sometimes I say stupid things
That I think
Well, I mean I
Sometimes I think the stupidest things
Because I never wonder
Oh how the girl feels
Oh how the girl feels

No you boys never care
Oh no you boys'll never care
No you boys never care
How the girl feels
No you boys never care
You dirty boys'll never care
No you boys never care
How the girl feels

Oh how the girl feels
Oh how the girl feels